My son Corey

Today Corey was official diagnosised with High functioning Autism. I expected to hear this news but it still was hard to hear a professional tell me that I was correct, my son isnt alright. He is more than just a little developmentally delayed. She said he is at the very top for high functioning. He is communicative. I am happy to have the diagnosis. At least we know what he is dealing with, but I am so sad for him. She said it will be hardest on us his family rather than him. Cause he doesnt know he has autism. She asked me if I did anything just for myself that doesnt involve any of the kids. Brian quickly told her No that I dont. He is right If I am not at work I am with the kids. I dont feel right leaving him with anyone else. He is so much work. Maybe they wont know all the signs that mean things to corey like he has to go to the bathroom or how fast he can run when he gets outside. Forget letting him spend the night somewhere He doesnt sleep. I cant let him go to someone elses house knowing that they are in for a completely sleepness night. What if they think he is asleep and he gets up and leaves?
1 in 166 kids have autism. Corey's twin, Kyle, had Hirschprungs 1 in 5000 are diagnosised with this. Why cant I have odds like this in the lottery?