School and stuff

I am in school. I am trying to get my AAS in Accounting. I don't know if I will make it. I love school and I love doing something just for me, but it's hard on the family. Noone complains but I can tell. Next quarter will be even harder as I am going to attempt 4 classes in the same quarter. 4 classes, working part time, and managing a household with 3 kids a dog and a cat will be fun.

Brian is buying a motorcycle. I am not sure really how I feel about that. I am glad for him, I want him to be able to do things that he loves or wants to try in this case. But I don't want him to die. That scares me.

My kids have 1 more week of summer. School starts August 11th. Katie will be a junior and Kyle a 3rd grader and Corey a 2nd grader. We have heard from Corey's teacher but that is all. I hope he does well this year. This is probably his last year in Regular Ed. I want him to succeed where ever he is but I am scared of putting him in the autism program. I want him to be pushed to do the best he can not just get by.

I realized that I have no friends. That is hard to say. I don't have anyone that I can call to talk to if I need to let off steam. No one calls me to let off steam either. My cousin that I grew up with is screwing up her life and won't listen to anyone. I send her messages or call her but she never returns my calls. My friends are my grandmother and my daughter. Can't really talk to them about everything can I? I reach out to people but noone ever calls me back. I guess I am not a lovable person.

I am not even sure why I am writing this blog. It's not like anyone reads it since I write in it so seldom.

I guess I just needed to "talk" to someone tonight.