feeling sorry for myself

While he is across the country visiting his "girlfriend" for the 3rd time since we seperated while I stay here and be the stable parent for the boys.

Dont know why I would think anything else would happen. 19 years of marriage, why would I think anything would be different in divorce. He gets to do what he wants and I make sure every one else is taken care of.

He has been gone since Wednesday. Tomorrow is 7 days and he hasnt even texted to see how the boys are... guess we know how important they are to him.

Of course, I would never say that to the boys. I wont bad mouth him to them.